Saturday, April 28, 2012 3:10 PM
Afterthoughts
I used to wake up in the middle of the night,breathing hard,heart sank to my diaphragm, heavy thoughts and hopeless. I held my phone up to check. Empty. Nothing. Again.
Disappointingly, I went back to sleep.
The same thing happened over again.. it's almost normal for me to wake up with terror in the middle of the night. Living in fright that I might lose someone tomorrow.
But now I know I can live without you. And Now I'm standing. Im not alone.
Today, the only thing in my mind after I woke up Is -what to eat later? What day is today? I'm not going to let myself live like that anymore.